I am overcoming my inability to type with my ability to talk (and talk and talk and talk) I'll be posting a video every week on my YouTube channel. I'll be posting those videos here too along with an occasional regular blog in the mix. (As long as my hands are up to doing the extra typing.)
You'll be able to watch the videos here, but I encourage you to stop by my channel at YouTube once I'm up and running to follow me and get my numbers started!
Memories can be so powerful. Good memories can help calm bad symptoms of chronic illness or bad pain from sitting in a wheelchair. Not always, but they help a lot.
This week I talked about some of my memories & the power of your memories.
(And for any nitpickers who get on my recollection of dreams, you've never been to the end of an Italian women’s party when the men come back to pick everybody up and something big’s going to be on TV!)
The more things change the more they stay the same. This is actually a replay of “Rant" from last year. I am feeling frustrated over many of the same things only some of them worse. I'm also dealing with it better. Maybe that's a warning!
I've got some things to tend to but I'll be back in 3 weeks.
Another week of things going wrong punching me in the face. BUT another week when my face survived!
It was also another week where I recorded edited and did the whole shebang on Wednesday all day and most of the night. I'm uploading and going to sleep.
Hopefully things are getting back to normal and I'll be tackling "list 2” to get my life back!
Today starts with a story about war relics and goes on to talk about America's Civil War and the Constitution. The song speaks of the fear that a Civil War could happen again.
Luke Combs is not afraid to talk about it and neither am I. I hope you're not either!
A better version of last week? Well certainly a better looking version than last week!
It includes me actually drinking from a coffee mug that has a story, a fun story. And some actual smiles!
I noticed, even at a lower level, I only have one extra chin sometimes that’s not that prevalent and both of my dimples are coming back. (Somewhere between the thyroid medicine and WW I'm even starting to look like my old self.)
Sometimes things can get overwhelming. I've jokingly said before that I'm the most overworked disabled person I know. Some are by choice. I don't HAVE to do Chronicles of Nani and yet in so many ways and for so many reasons I do have to do it.
But there are other things too. My husband works all day and there are a lot of things he doesn't have time to do. It's a choice between having dinner or getting me clean. I have to be honest sometimes that's a rough choice. But my being clean, while it's healthier in the long run, doesn't put dinner in his belly.
So I have a list of major priorities that I have to take care of. I'm not physically able to clean the house but I have to get the house tidied and in order or I can't get a home health aide that will stay and work with me to keep me clean and healthy. I also need to make sure that things are put away in an order that I know where everything is so that when someone asks me or some thing is I can tell them exactly where to look. I have drawers labeled for everything and I'm going through now figuring out if I need to get some more drawers. I am also desperately trying to figure out a way to get my haircut and the color adjusted before looking at myself drives me crazy. (That part is personal but it's very important for my mental health.)
So there's an abundance of things I need to do, but there are things that I need, especially for my health, and want really badly. And I'm the only one who is going to be able to get them done. So this wiek I am taking a break to try to get things caught up than I need to and I'm showing a rerun from a year ago that I should've watched a couple weeks ago.
Now you see me, now you don't? Oh you'll see me in this vlog, just not a ton at first. My husband washed my hair when he was really not in the mood to be washing my hair. That only do I look like my hair was washed by someone who didn't want to wash it, but I look downright scary!
It's not fair! This blood premieres on my birthday and just one day after the two year anniversary of Chronicles of Nani on YouTube. I should get to look like happy party girl that is scary Halloween girl.
But there is some fun video of me in my house and some fantastic pictures of deer & fawns take a note just by me and my husband but with the permission of neighbors in the nextdoor group. Thank you so much to everybody that added their photos of sweet spotted little babies!
When we last left our face in the recliner talking about home health aides, things ended with the happy announcement phone with an aid that was going to come in every day while my husband was away. Now is where the “best laid plans” mine comes in.
The nurse who was coming in to do aide work
for the week is terribly allergic to cats. I don't usually think about the cats first I worry about the Hoyer lift first
So we had to come up with Plan B, definitely some thing I learned and taught my nieces about from Stephen Covey’s 7 Habits Of Highly Effective People Book. "Always have a back up plan.”
That works for any plans anyone has, but it also works for when you suddenly find that you have a chronic illness or you end up in a wheelchair. That's definitely a situation where your best laid plans for life change.
It also prompted me to look up the phrase "the best laid plans of mice and men," because I was curious about exactly where it came from. A Scottish poem written by Robert Burns in 1785. It's fascinating how many books, other poems, movies and even a Jethro Tull song have mentioned parts of that poem or parts that are translated from that poem. The Wikipedia page (It's not a very long page) is worth reading just to find out how many things you've heard it in. Very cool!
Whether it's a chronic illness or a wheelchair or both, we all have a need for assistance. Sometimes it takes a while before we admit that. It's human nature to try to be determined enough to do it on your own as long as you possibly can. But when you do need that help you need either someone that lives with you and is there 24/7 or you need a home health aide that can come in and help you with the things you can no longer do alone.
There are a lot of us that need more than someone to just keep us company, microwave a meal or play a game of checkers. I can't move without a patient lift and I'm not capable of cleaning myself without assistance. Those types of home health aides are not so easy to find. Back to, as I've said before, “home health aides are the most overworked and underpaid members of the medical pyramid." Truly skilled people are so underpaid that they either move on or continue with school to become qualified for a better paying job in the field.
In the area where I am it is especially difficult to find not just qualified for my needs, but Home Health Care at all
This weeks vlog has happy moment and sad moments. And keep your eye on the left side of the screen if you just want to see lots of cat and kitten play video bombs!
Be sure to stick around for my happy ending slate!
Life with a chronic illness and in a wheelchair we all create and live with our own kind of normal. I had a few wonderful days of exactly that, including enough energy to accomplish "too much to do." With MS they don't last forever, but when they do it's heaven! Everyone enjoyed having me around, ESPECIALLY me!
Please come and enjoy with me a great weekend including a new kitten!
(Thank you David, Mike, Claudia, Sheri, my Dad & Aunt and Casey, the sweetest little kitten around, for making my world fantastic this weekend!)
This vlog is about things I've been doing to catch up in my world. It includes how one gets a weight when they're in a wheelchair and can't stand on a scale, Covid booster shots, my emotional support cat celebrating his birthday and my sheer joy in seeing and listening to the nearby carnival.
OK, I've had a couple of colds, 2 bouts of food poisoning & I just plain don't have enough help to keep me going. Very soon that last part, I pray, will be fixed and I can start being human enough to tape again every week.
I'm sorry that I just disappeared for a while but I'll be back again on my normal basis soon. As always prayers and good thoughts are all greatly appreciated.
So the doctor tells me it wasn't allergies afterall. When she changed my catheter she told me that how sick I've been feeling is because I have a nasty UTI. So I'm back to showing a rerun this week while I'm letting the antibiotics make me healthy enough to do a new vlog.
While I'm uploading I already feel like I'll be up to doing a new video for next week.
Enjoy the opposite of sick from a UTI this week!
Join me on YouTube tomorrow & every Friday at 8am for the Premier.
Talk shows with much bigger crews than me take a week off, no they take weeks off and show rerun. I get the whole need a break every now and then. Right now David helps out but for the most part it's just me and the editor. And yes, I absolutely do realize that the editor and I are the same person. I probably deserve the occasional break more than the network people do.
But, check out the chosen rerun from last year. That's all you need to know about why I needed to take a break this week.
Sometimes, I just don't have something I can talk about for a long time but there's a bunch a little things that I want to talk about. That's today. I'll talk a little bit about one of my best friends, things going on with Russia (YAY Ukraine!) Walk MS, my visit from the EMTs and the deer in my front yard.
May be interested in some things more than others. Might get a chuckle or you might just think hmmm.
Today's blog is definitely not wha I planned. I was actually pretty excited about what I was planning on doing, but things that happened at the end of last week change my mind.
I've said before and I don't currently have any home health aides that can help me out and my husband is usually the one that gets me is ready as he can to record. But this weekend he's been very sick with a series called and as a matter of fact on Tuesday when I recorded and edited this weeks video. I ended up talking about some thing very different.
I had a horrible night last week ended up in some nasty self harm and today is just a little talking about the fact that there are definitely self harmful things that go through the minds of people with chronic the most positive of us on a bad day and we all have to do our best not to give in.
It's March and in our part of Ohio that means one last snowfall, sometimes two. But at our house late February and early March also means flowers! Crocus is a perennial flower, that means it's a bulb in the ground that you don't have to plant every year it just buds and then blossoms. It can start to bud and then be snowed on again and it doesn't stop.
I consider myself a crocus. Things can be thrown at me, like snow throws itself on a crocus, and I may be slowed down or I may even disappear for a while, but I let it go away or make it go away and then I'm ready to blossom again.
A chronic illness or living in a wheelchair does not mean you stop blooming. Every time you do some thing in spite of that illness or chair, you bloom a little brighter. You are a crocus too.
Along with my cohost, Marco, this is a journey through clips that start with my deciding whether or not Chronicles of Nani was even going to happen all the way through some things from actual episodes that didn't quite fit but are still nonetheless interesting.
(Yes, my co-host slept through the entire thing, but it was shot during kitty siesta time.)
Join me on YouTube every Friday at 8am to chat with me during the premier!
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I'd love to say "don't look at the woman behind the curtain" today. But there's no curtain, it's just me in my unglitzy glory. If as a superhero I am Batman I have to have an Alfred.
But the truth is anyone living with a chronic illness or in a wheelchair, for whatever reason, is a superhero if you see them out there with everybody else. If you have no idea how much it takes to get any of us out there with you, or if you’re one of us and you think you're the only one that needs that much help, grab a cup of whatever is coffee for you and join us today!